Archive for January, 2006

The contentment of a clean desk!

I know that I fall into the sterotype of Type A, anal people.  I am okay with this…what would we do with a world full of Type B personalities?  We would have a good time, but nobody would remember to pay the bills, do the dishes, and get the oil changed.  I like lists, I enjoy checking them off with a smile, I like calenders, day planners, and sticky notes.  These things make me happy and at peace.  I actually have a horrible short term memory…but if I write it down…I can confidently know I won’t forget it.  There is nothing that puts me in a tail-spin more than forgetting something or having the “feeling” of forgetting something. 

My job requires a lot of paperwork….A LOT!  These kids have more legal documents than OJ.  Every three years they have a “triennial” review.  This is a big process of giving them a formal 2-3 hour test on all academic areas…teacher reviews, I observe them in a regular classroom, and then I write a huge report of findings.  I have had several of those to do lately, plus some other SPED stuff cluttering up my desk.  Although they are in neat, labeled stacks….they have been staring at me for weeks!  Not to mention grading papers, getting reports cards out, yahddy, yahda, whine, whine, whine.

Today I successfully finished all pending paperwork.  I wish I had a camera to show my nice, tidy working area.  I ran my hands across my nice clean desk and took a deep breath and let it out in a sigh of contentment.  Only those like me will appreciate these last two paragraphs, the rest of you will shake your head and think I am a sicko.  That’s alright…I can’t change you and you can’t change me…but we can appreciate each other.

Most of my roommates from the past have been Type B….laid back, let it ride, who cares, I can do it tomorrow type of people.  Ryan is no exception to this, although he is very clean…just unorganized and likes to procrastinate.  My roommates have always conformed to my anal rules, like stacking the tupperware by size and putting the lids (By size) in another container.  The food in the pantry and fridge is organized by similar food groups, etc….Some have thanked me for these lessons in organization and others just put up with me.  If you think I am bad…ask me about my mother…I live like a slob next to her…so I feel I have reduced the “anality” by half and maybe the next generation can reduce it more.

So cheers to those who have lived with me and helped me unwind more.  Mad props to Ryan who has to live with me and all my quirks until kingdom come….you are patient and loving and I appreciate you!  To the rest of you still looking for your keys, glasses, where you sat that bill that is overdue, and didn’t write down when your last oil change was or your next doctors appt………you can keep that way of life…I will go on checking off my lists.  See here is one now….update blog….CHECK!

Female Rush

***Warning…total chick lamenting***

Okay…I am smitten beyond belief at the two eternal beings that have just joined the ranks of humanity:  Isabel Hemeon and Connor Grahl.  WOW…I am saturated with new life right now and it is amazing.  I am thrilled beyond belief for both families.  It is a tremendous honor to walk side by side with your friends and family through their pregnancies.  You feel more attached to the child when they are born.  This rush of deep love warms you all over the first time you hold a newborn.

It is no secret that my hormones are in overdrive right now.  I am merely 4 months from my 30th birthday and the ache to be a mother overwhelms me lately.  It was pathetic yesterday.  Ryan and I were at the mall to develop some pictures and I wanted to go into Baby Gap and get an outfit for Connor.  It isn’t like it was my first time in this store or my first time buying baby clothes…but something about holding up booties the size of my pinky broke me down.  I started crying which made Ryan well up.  It is so hard for him to understand how deeply I am yearning for this next season, but he is compassionate none the less.  It was pathetic…I made him go up and pay because I couldn’t get myself together. 

I know God is the author of our desires and this is one I have had as long as I can remember.  The walls of our apartment seem to be closing in lately.  I am sick of living in an apartment.  I am ready to be in a house, start a family, and manage life for us in my kingdom at home.  I have to fight this feeling of “it is never going to happen”.  That is such a slap in God’s face.  He only wants good things for his children, His timing is soverign and PERFECT.  He has given me the most amazing husband whom I know will be a tremendous father.  EVERYTHING  is better when God is orchestrating the timing.  So just like Jacob, I am wrestling with God and having a hard time submitting and being faithful to the wonderful and full life he has given me TODAY.

Well…that is my rant of the day. 

 

Toilet Paper Tragedy

I don’t get it…what is the point of the one-ply toilet paper?  I am lucky enough to have my own bathroom in my classroom.  It is not used exclusively by me, but only a small select hiney’s grace the toilet seat.  For the life of me I can not understand the ECONO roll of toilet paper they put in this tiny little C-shaped spot. 

First of all….you can’t hardly spin the roll when it is first put on.  You usually get those mutant scraps of toilet paper you don’t know if you should flush, throw away or chuck on the ground. ( I always wondered why there were small pieces of toilet paper on public restroom floors when I was a kid)

Second of all…you have to use a ton of toilet paper to even get a decent wipe.  There is nothing worse then when the toilet paper soaks through and you know you are touching your own urine….NASTY!  I won’t even go into the senarios that can happen on the back side.  Not to mention…the paper is so ROUGH!!!  How is that possible?

Third of all….what is the point?  I for one use way less toilet paper when I have the 3ply sheets.  There is a comfort in knowning there will be no leak throughs or cuts and abrasions from sandpaper toilet paper.

I know I am not mentioning anything that many of us haven’t already thought about or complained about…but it just struck me again as I took my 2nd period trip to the bathroom.  I am so tempted to bring in my own toilet paper…but I know I would end up spending way too much money on something not that important. 

My last rant of the day…..pantyhose.  I am not a fan in the least.  Thankfully Virginia permits about 9 months of pantyhose free weather.  Those other 3 months are torturous to me.  I already have ridiculously short legs so panty hose never line up where they are suppose to.  I have to do this neat little trick where I pull all the extra material down past my toes and tuck it under my feet so I have the ball of pantyhose in my shoes.  It is better than the alternative…granny knees and ankles.  I would rather not draw attention to those two places on my body.  Very few styles fit my body type and height.  You suck Hanes!  I am probably limiting myself because I refuse to pay over $4.00 for a pair of hose that could run the first time I wear them.  I don’t consider hose and investment.

Anyway…in a gross attempt to put off the inevitable work that sits on my desk…that is my post for today.  If you only knew how many times I spelled toilet wrong.. had to go back and switch the o and the i around…you would laugh.  I am a horrible speller.  If you ever want to feel good about yourself play Scrable with me.  YIKES

Unnecessary Reminder

Have you ever been reminded by a co-worker just how bad your job “can” suck.  I say can…because I work hard to keep positive and not focus on the negative aspects of my job, though the list can be long.  I have a good job by most standards.  Being a teacher has a fantastic schedule.  I am home most days by 3:00pm.  I work a mile from my house, I get a ridiculous amount of vacation time while being paid all year round.  No the pay isn’t astronomical…but it is a decent salary with full benefits.  I will say that the No Child Left Behind has made my job hellish.  It is the biggest joke I have ever heard of and does anything but help a special needs child.  The Special Ed Chair of my school came in my classroom today and unloaded on me about the meeting she had with the head of SPED for our district.  I could feel myself physically getting more tense by the minute, I started shifting back and forth rapidly and immediately my speech took on a completely negative tone.  I was 100% bummed out by the time she left me.  This was not her intent by any means, she simply wanted to share her frustration with a fellow laborer…however, it spun me down quickly and I found myself resenting my job.  I made a conscious effort when switching school districts this year to stay out of the teacher’s lounge.  I enjoy many of my fellow teachers…but they are an interesting breed.  You all remember the stereo types from when you were in school.  There are always the few teachers that hate their subject matter and hate kids even more.  Why do they stay teaching?  Heck if I know…it has to be the retirement benefits!  These teachers tend to be the gossip hounds and stir up the hornets nest whenever possible.  We have the crazy art teacher who is over the top gregarious, we have those classic teachers who are caught in the fashion disasters of a few decades back and then we have the hoity, toity super smart…I have a masters in this and that and I am too good for you Teacher.  I try to stay as far away as possible. Teaching is not my life, it is my pay check.  When I leave at 3:00…I leave!   I have realized how much more pleasant my year has been.  I eat lunch at my desk, check blogs, listen to my music, catch up on phone calls and have a nice relaxing 30 minutes all to my self.  I ate one time in the teachers lounge in the late fall and hated every second of it.  I may have a reputation I am not even aware of for not socializing…but the benefits outweigh the cost in my opinion.

So I ask….is it better to work in ignorance or is it wise to stay in the pipeline of what is happening?  I for one think I am going to stay in my ignorant hole in room 500 with the reputation of being a hermit, but sweet girl and call it a day.

Flashes of Beauty

I had a unique opportunity to come over and photograph my beautiful neice this morning….check it out….she is ADORABLE!!!!! Can I just say how much baby fever I have running through my veins….between my neice and Candace ready to pop any second and Gaylyns baby who lives right behind me…THERE ARE BABIES EVERYWHERE! All in due time…all in due time…